unphased......

  Wow i havent really written in a really long time. i thought about it, but  i just didnt want to, i guess. well fall break is coming to an end, and im dreading it. i really dont wanna go back to sas, in fact I'm dreading it. its just so uhhhhhh i HATE IT, even more than i did initially. and it sucks cause when my chi city friends ask , im always like yea its great........... yea its really not.  I'm also really mad bcuz all the adults around me keep telling me that  friends fade anyway so i would be experincing this anyway, but its not true my friends back home were my life friends, i've known them all so long, it wouldnt just fade like typical high school friends, and here im never going to find any like them. I am also scared that im going to fade away for them, are they just gonna forget me by senior year? like i never exsisted? its really freaking me out, cause i know we all move on with our lives and shit but its like im not there i think about chi city all the time, but its like all my friends are still there, im the only thing thats missing....i just am really having a hard time here.

I got these really sick(sas word ) heels from charles and keith, they are really hot! there all sliver and strappy and criss crosy. but i just ugg fuck not even my fav sport of shopping can take my mind off this. ON A BRIGHT NOTE

my friend janu won hc queeen in chi city! im so glad shes so pretty and nice, she deserves to win, my brown beauty!lol fuck dance class tomorrow i really dont wanna go 

sorry this was such an emo/deep post 

lo siento

i just 

miss

my

home 

alot

actually

fuck 

that 

shit

i miss 

it

a

SHITLOAD

i <3>

oh and tonight i went to sammy's curry place  they serveu food on a bana leaf it was pretty BA, oh and for thanxgiving im going to AUSSIE LAND! to check out universities! im super pumped,i really wanna go to uni there and college just in general! if anyone who is reading this ever wants to go to SAS (SHIT ASS SCHOOL or the actual name) PLEAse do not! its so horrible. but then again i just might be worked up cause i just watched a walk to remeber and even though it has nothing to do with the southside of chicago it made me really homesick, and then i might have listend to the fray , but besides them im strictly hip hop and indians music.