forget me not!

Hola,

damn its been long, im sure no one really bothers reading this, but if you do , HEY! anyways 

i guess i feel like blogging today because i think im experincing an emotion i never have before. I feel Forgotten. I guess i should have seen this coming i mean, i live across the world from everything, everyone, my home. It just really sucks because i try so hard to stay in touch with people. I wake up early on the weekends so i can talk to my chicago friends. Maybe that doesn't seem like such a big commitment but it is to me. I havent forgotten them at all! They are all still very much in my mind and heart. But lately it seems that they have forgotten me. Now im thinking about my other friends that have moved, and if i really stayed in touch with them, some yes some no. But its not like i've stopped thinking about them. When one of my friends moved to england, i stayed in contact with her for a while, just not lately since i moved here. I think it must depend on the person because i still reach out to all my friends now its up to them to reach out to me. 

I really hate this because i dont to lose them, because to me they are my life friends i've known most of them since i was 5 , and i just moved to singapore. Honestly, people in Singapore are not friendly at all, they always have to trash talk somebody. I always look forward to my weekends when i can talk to my chi town friends because i know i'll have nice conversation and be happy again. 

i just dont wanna be forgotten, thats all i guesss

booo on POCKEY/ denise richards says "fatass" way to much

OMG considering ive have been one sad brownie recently i forgot to mention the spectacular events of 1st night of october break!me and my bestie christy decided to have one last night on the town or the quay (river idk boat and clarke) before we parted ways, any way so basically we decided to get classily smashed, aka just a bit gone not like falling all over the place. so anyway first we hit up boat quay and went to this little place by  the river rwhich had 8 dolla margaritas which are pretty cheap in singapore, not the best, then we had this shitty singapore sling eww. While we were waiting for the bill we see a bunch of little tiny tots presumbly from sas or someother international school. trying to be all hard and get into this bar, and all these boys in striped polos were holding hands of baby prostitues, but then i started to wonder if we looked like that , not baby prostitutes, but OBVIOUSLY KIDS. lol so i think the part really just made the evening was when we paid and then i got the change and then iw as like make sure nothing else is in there , and LOW AND BEHOLD the dim waiter forgot to take the 50 out so he basically gave us 80 bucks! okay so i am still pondering whether or not that was morally wrong. I think it was, please forgive me gods, well anyway sO we were likle yea fuck this, and then on our way to clarke quay i decieded to topple down some stairs. Christie thought i had died but apperently im invincible i hate stilletos! but i love them at the same time.  

Then we went to this amazin bar in clakre quay/ got some falfel which was v. good! and did some serious boy checking out, i wonder if i am going to be a lady with a billion cats bcuz i am not getting any. I hope this willl change in college. anyway back to the story christie got a sex on the beach (she was cracking up the whole time when seh was saying it showing how mature we are. and i got this lychee martini which i spilled i bit latter on in the night). ANd alas the night came to a close but not before we hit up the CoFFE cLUB, and got some amazin desssert. ha anyway that was my amazing night before i was dragged off to Malaysia on a family historical holiday. 

Double score no dance or hw for me to night!!! BOO YAH (omg that was so lame , i apologize.) BUT OMG i was one the phone watching E! becuase singapore doesnt have that good of a varitey of channels and DEnise richacrds its complicated comes on and she says im such a fat ass like a billion times in a the most midwestern accent possible AHH UR A BOND GIRL SHUT UP , then i ws lilke who a i need to lose weight and of course im chowing down on something at about that time! AKA POckey which islike 20 cents instead of 5 dollars

boo school tomara i dont wanna go! i think ill rock my boots and my extra large headphones , god i wanna go to college

unphased......

  Wow i havent really written in a really long time. i thought about it, but  i just didnt want to, i guess. well fall break is coming to an end, and im dreading it. i really dont wanna go back to sas, in fact I'm dreading it. its just so uhhhhhh i HATE IT, even more than i did initially. and it sucks cause when my chi city friends ask , im always like yea its great........... yea its really not.  I'm also really mad bcuz all the adults around me keep telling me that  friends fade anyway so i would be experincing this anyway, but its not true my friends back home were my life friends, i've known them all so long, it wouldnt just fade like typical high school friends, and here im never going to find any like them. I am also scared that im going to fade away for them, are they just gonna forget me by senior year? like i never exsisted? its really freaking me out, cause i know we all move on with our lives and shit but its like im not there i think about chi city all the time, but its like all my friends are still there, im the only thing thats missing....i just am really having a hard time here.

I got these really sick(sas word ) heels from charles and keith, they are really hot! there all sliver and strappy and criss crosy. but i just ugg fuck not even my fav sport of shopping can take my mind off this. ON A BRIGHT NOTE

my friend janu won hc queeen in chi city! im so glad shes so pretty and nice, she deserves to win, my brown beauty!lol fuck dance class tomorrow i really dont wanna go 

sorry this was such an emo/deep post 

lo siento

i just 

miss

my

home 

alot

actually

fuck 

that 

shit

i miss 

it

a

SHITLOAD

i <3>

oh and tonight i went to sammy's curry place  they serveu food on a bana leaf it was pretty BA, oh and for thanxgiving im going to AUSSIE LAND! to check out universities! im super pumped,i really wanna go to uni there and college just in general! if anyone who is reading this ever wants to go to SAS (SHIT ASS SCHOOL or the actual name) PLEAse do not! its so horrible. but then again i just might be worked up cause i just watched a walk to remeber and even though it has nothing to do with the southside of chicago it made me really homesick, and then i might have listend to the fray , but besides them im strictly hip hop and indians music. 

yay! my english teacher loves me!

Yay! I think this was about the best monday , ive had in a long time. I had free first, then instead of doing hw which i shoulda been doing me and some girls got into this intense political debate, we basically concluded that none of us like palin. In English class we had this super intense literature test! i was SO flustered dear me! I was like whipping out facts and cultural references from the Ramayana and the Mahabharata left right and center. BUT i think this might have been the best part of my day! So I've been getting really stressed out lately because october grades are coming out and i just wanna do really good, so i can be proud and my parents can be proud and everything. I didnt have that hot a grade in english but then today she handed back our "epic hero" essays and i got a 92! i was so excited and now i have an 84 in english! which is really exciting! now i need to get this physics grade up to par! ahhh this one kid is my physics class is kinda fine.... im not gonna lie. OH ALso i thought we had a test today in physics so i was really not  happy that i had to skip lunch to study and then i find out that THERE IS NO TEST! well its on thursday but WHATEVER~

Yesterday i went to Sifas(Singapore Indian Fine Arts School) in Little india and signed up for lessons. OMG i have not danced in so long and this was definently a RUDE WAKE UP CALL!  i think i need to re perfect my technique and i think just everything in general. THis dance school is so different from Pranita Auntie. This one is so TRADITONal to the max they like sing chants with their handgestures and during their namaskar. I was like WTFF! thank god Tulsi is taking it too! otherwise i would be so nervous! Oh and their is no AIR CON , there is a little fan! on the Mrt i was like dying on pain and everyone was staring at me. OMG legs still kill ahhh fuckkkk. Oh and apperently one of the dance teachers is gay and dresses like a woman. interesting considering its so strict and all! 

anyway my hand really hurts so i shall end this now!

HAHA SAS YOUR HOMECOMING SUCKed

WOw , its been a while yet again, but im back. This weekend was homecoming at sas, but me being super spirited... not did not go to it. But i herd it sucked major asss anyways! yesterday i went to clarke quay with Arshia, Shivika, and of course my honoary ./euro sidekick pal CHRISTY!!! it was so fun we went to this amazing resturant/pub called Markesh, we got chicken shorma, falfel and mojitos/daqueris. IT was super tasty. and then theres this club called Sahara in Boat Quay its so crappy omg so we left, and way then omg the best /funniest part of the night i think was going to bollywood dhoom. which was lke some creepy indian pub with dancing indians girls who looked like drag queens and dorky IT indians guys watching needless to say we were teh only girls in the whole pub, so we got the fuck outta there! but it was so fun adn Shivika and ARshia are so nice!!!! 

But i got these Nina high heels before i left the chi and ithought they were awsome!!! but they let me down yetagain, i am a cripple i have indian dance tomara and i iwll not be able to dancei really want some heels from charles and keith, they are so PRETTY!!! i got this really hot "british" looking bag today at bugis its gray and slingy.I LIKE IT ALOT, and christy got gray  boots and they are super HOT!!! and of course we had to make our weekly visit to doby ghat, Coffe club. I rocked this really hot trench coat dress... why i wore it to a coffee house? beats me . i guess im just cool like that.  so we got there and YES~! we were greeted by the really enthusiastic waiter guy (hes a bit hot im not going to lie) and what made it even better was that he was like " hello Nisha hello Chris--ty? how are you today? " and i was like YES , so i think that confirms out status as regulars we got this "fruity tiramisu" but if u ask my opinion it tasted like cheese cake, def not tiramisu! christy got this strawberry italian soda thing and i got this lychee mint tea thing. anyways then we decided to trot about and we wondered down this poppin alley way and saw a crepere and  french resturant. oh YEA IN bugis i was craving a baguette, and we went to this awsome place and got salmon baguetes w/complementry mushroom soup! omg though th e lady had a really strong accent and i could not understand that she was saying GOOD fucking MORNing, god how thick am i ?i felt like a total ass hole, oh well. anyways im VERY tired and i really have a lot of beef con el autobus 96 and 183

modern dance makes me cry... and Where the fuck are the jammie dS??

Coffee Club 
Haji Lane

Hevans to Betsy ! My long weekend has come to a close! and its very! UPSETTING ! i do not want to go back to school! i hate how much drama there is! these girls are so stupid its like stop thinking so much about your social position and just enjoy life!!!! GOD DAMmit! oh well all i have to do is thank god , that christie isnt like that!! hahah my friend called her a hipppie, shes not a hippie at all hahahahah anyway!

 i went to this modern dance the other night and i really didnt want to go but i did quite enjoy myself im not gonna lie. So the first one was typical modern dance rolling about on the floor and such but then omg i actually started cracking up at the next one , they started dancing about with white wood arches... tre weird. BUT then i saw this one called "the love cycle" and somehow i got really into it it was all about heart break, and not to sound CORNYAT ALL but i think the :"the love cycle" was what i went through when i moved here,  just all these different confusing WTF  emotions. God im one choked up brownie right now. Then the finale was this REALLY EMO piece called "at the break of dawn" and omg thrashing central, they were like being really violent on stage ang to heighten the experince they like pounced on the audience.! i was VERY FLUSTERD, i was like shit akward dance guy in tights flailing around by me. 

I went shopping with Christie on friday at bugis and i got this really hot trench coat dress! its really scandolous! ahh i was talking to one of my other friends and apperently me and christie are always doing "local " things. lol hahahahaha. Then we went to Haji Lane and checked out some vintage shops and such but they were SO EXPENSIVE HOLY SHIT! and apperantly there was some religious holiday going on so people were trying to get us to buy food like $1 paratha and other things! I got this super awsome indian eyeliner! for 3 dollares~

Then we went to china town, and walked down this really funny lane of wedding shops ! and then the other half was really seedy bars!!!! then we finally got so hungry that we went back to dhoby ghat to the coffee club and met the super over enthusiastic waiter! again then he started to giggle becuaase he recognized us... at the rate were going i think we will be regulars at the coffeee club! 

sorry super boring post! oh i saw the hottest brown man on the MRT HOLY SHIT 

ice mint lychee tea freeze/ doby ghat evening

FOUR DAy WEEKEND BITCHEZ! ahh omg so i woke up at 5 20 am this morning and i did and finished my physics projecto!!!! YAY! but then i got to school and it decided to delete its self what a stressful day! ahh im so exhusted! then after school i chilled and then i got ready and did this instense purple make up look and met christie at DOby GHAT1 and we went to the coffe club(sweeter version of STARBUCKs) and we got this amazing dessert chocolate! and then these "tea freezes" and omg i kno this kinda lame but the waiter was like oh heres the wine list, and we were like WHOA!!! YAY!!! then we walked around and chatted and we saw these hippies playing guitar by a mall of course! and Some how im on this super crazy craze of one tree hill.